Space, Grace and Steps

I’ve stared at the multi-colored bag since May. Sitting by the corner table, now collecting dust, it patiently waits for me to deliver it. Long gone is the day of graduation. In fact, college classes started this week. And I, as well, begin a new school year. All reminders that the gift has yet to be delivered. Reminders of a past life; moving in different directions.

1. This is the beginning of your life.

New beginnings are exciting, challenging, welcome. Hard. Beginning something new is hard. Uncertainty looms, even with great confidence, which is present yet often hidden. That’s why people stay places they’ve long outgrown. Even in nature, when the ground no longer supports what grows decisions are made. For me, leaving was a decision. For you, the natural progression of life. Neither one better than the other. It was just time.

2. The doubt your mind tells you is a lie.

Procrastination is a bitch. Dropping off the gift took 15 minutes round trip. I thought, as I left it on the porch, about why it sat undelivered for months. The guilt far outweighs the relief of finally completing the task. So why wait? It’s almost like starting a new routine, the mind needs time to catch up to what’s actually happening. Maybe the mind needs something tangible to show it that letting go of what was is ok because there is something new to take it’s place. Probably why so many people stay places that no longer suits them.

3. Take time with the space you need to gather your thoughts.

Tuesday starts a whole new path. A lasting one I hope. To cycle as a teacher is such a unique experience. Growth happens during the year, but to be part of the growth process year after year is truly remarkable. That is what make it hard to leave. That’s why I always “Irish Exit”. If I don’t say good-bye then it’s just until next time.

3. Leave before you become unhappy.

Some blogs are for others. This blog is for me. Remember to give grace to endings leading to new beginnings. Patience is key. That nagging procrastination is protection for the mind and body to catch up to what the spirit already knows. The day I left, I didn’t say good-bye. It was a day earlier than expected. And I cried, sobbed even. Eight years of growth. But it was time.

4. Feel everything fully.

I left a bag of confidence. I don’t think you need it, but just incase you stumble and forget.

5. Inspiration is reversible.